I am AMAZED by the amount of "I'm disappointed of you Vap" vibes i got from this ~> [link]
And how people took their time to write loonnnggg comments about how this and that is unfair and blah blah.

Maybe i wrote it wrong in the description, i don't know any more~

Fandoms ARE a good thing in their core, a place where you find people with the same interests as you, art you like and justa place where you feel belong~

But you also have to deal with it. With the good comes the bad . You can ignore the crap, sure, but in the end it is the people from the outside mostly who don't know/like that show and expose the crap materials.

Just as i wrote:
" All fandoms have the good and the bad! The bad just shine in its ugliness better. "

I picked up MLP because... i... felt like it?
Because it is super popular and relevant at the moment?
I could easly just pick up Home Stuck or to put in Doctor Who and watch the world burn the same way haha :'D

This is also not about "I'm just telling my opinion" thing, before anyone tell me that.
It's a joke. I knew people will dig too deep into it but dduudddeeee...

Bottom line:
Don't give the "lost a lot respect for you " crap, you just can't accept a super light joke / you are waayyy too protective or sensitive. And maybe for that i'm sorta sorry for you.

But for the rest...

If you don't read my Tumblr ( FOR SHAME ), My pc died on Friday, leaving me helpless for the weekend.
Not knowing if all my stuff is dead can really take your soul away...

ANYWAY, i just had someone over and he revived the poor thing back ( it is too old to handle my stuff and it was WAYYyyy too dirty inside, making some fan stop working ) so now i'm just.... backing up everything like a crazy dog.

So sorry with the notes delay!
We are on the hunt for a new computer now, hopefully this week ;;

.. Oh wait that happened almost 2 months ago..
BUT it is the first journal of 2013~

BEAUTIFUL Delay~


Nothing is much new around sadly.
I'm still unemployd but i got/get to do new illustrations for a book ( the same series i did in 2009 for little kids ) and i WANT to call it "doing a secret project" though it is going a bit slow... inspiration is a bitch :[

Sorry for those who keep asking about the icons commissions, i WILL open them soon enough but right now i try to focus on drawing and works that can give me more money than 12$ ;; I can't bring myself to raise the prices cause than people might not buy them drawings/icons anymore so this is a bit of a dilemma... even when the art quality got better..

Any way, thanks for those who keep commission me, that really helps :'D I'm always open for drawings~

To see more of my ass you can go to my Tumblr (vaporotem) where i'm most active!

LOVE

Figured 'tis the season to change my journal~

I'm still searching for the meaning of life, doing commissions and trying to run this secret project of mine~
Money, why won't you love me..


Have a happy holiday, what ever you got ( I celebrate a runny nose ¦D; ) and eat anything that looks eatable~

I actually got some xmas gifts?! PEOPLE STILL BELIEVE I AM ALIVE HURRAY!

ghsfgjshgbsrgbnrlhgblrbh

GONE TO EAT FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR...

DAMMIT YOU GUYZ >:I

ANYWAYZ, Thank you all who sent me screens, even if it wasn't the exact number ;3; It filled me with loving feeling Aaaaahhh

And by coincidence, the 4mill got caught by 4 people! This is not the first time this happens around here...

Thank you =BijouRayne,=Blue-Flare,*choco-bit and ~xDracheEscurox for catching it~

I shall contact ya all in a sec~


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oh huh

Only now i noticed how close it is to 4mil pageviews.

WELP

Once in a blue moon i do something! And this is a pretty cool high number so why not~

First to catch and give me the screenshot will get some little present :>




Other than that, life as an unemployed so far are....

.... yeah i better start doing stuff.

Ahhhh back home~

To try and find myself in the world and figure what i want to do~


.....


.... Can i go back to Berlin now?

Thing went SORTA acording to plans and we are leaving to Berlin in 3 hours for 10 days! :'D But i gotta close the pc soon so i can prepare things up and not mess around FFFFFFFF
We will be around Prenzlauer Berg~

I also became officialy unemployed today. Party time.

Just hoping things will calm down more when we come back. Thank you for all the support and kind words through these tense days! <3

Might be updating my Tumblr with photos and stuff if ya wanna keep an eye but other than that..

SMELL YA AROUND

Hey guyz!
If you don't listen to the news, some shit is going on in Israel/Gaza right now.

I update almost daily from the shit that is going on from my Tumblr so please understand if i disappear or something, it is much more easy to update through my cellphone there~

No worries about commissions, i still do em/finish them <3

Time for some TUMBLR COPY PASTA

Because i'm lazy :I

Many asked and flood me with messages about this ( sorry, i went to bed pff ) so i figured i should explain..

My situation is like this: I work in a gambling company and my major work there was supposed to be story boarder and character designer. I DID do those things but because of defective functioning of the place, other stuff that have nothing to do with me or things i know fell on me.

Now, we all sometimes don't like things they tell us to do but we do any way~ But this was something else… Imagine you are an expert in fixing CARS and then one day, your boss tells you you need to fix an AIRPLANE ( lousy comparison but you get it ). Not only that, your boss can not promise you that once you SOMEHOW manage to fix it, they won't give you the same shit in the near project. I also get to work with wonderful people whom i will miss so it is even more hard to leave..

But I got really miserable in the past 2 months and the only times i felt good was when they suddenly needed some character design ( i posted some in Tumblr before ) but it takes me less than an hour.. and then they got nothing for me. I started to be angry, being even a little jerky to the boss, even when he did nothing ( no worries, we are all same level here and friends ) and it made me feel TERRIBLE that i'm turning into.. THAT!

SO

Today i handed over the resignation papers and now i will have to finish what left of that one project and to finish this month of work to get my last paycheck. Next week me and my boyfriend are going to Berlin for 10 days so it will cover up too ( Yeah, take a vacation after you leave your money source lol )

And i feel FANTASTIC RIGHT NOW. So much stress ending in one minute... This is how drugs feel like.

Future is a little fuzzy for me right now but man, my heart doesn't hurt anymore… I will just have to figure out what i do with my self..

Many thanks to who ever followed and said good words to me ;-;

Drawings commissions are always open but since the icons are open for only 10 slots at time, i need to make a journal entery~

ICONS ARE CLOSED~


A few notes:

- I now work with Paint Tool Sai so they are more painty/brushy like feeling~

- I will only open 10 slots for the icons at the moment because... last time i really over did it and killed my brain ¦D;

- Drop a note!

- .... and that's it.


CLICK~> Please make sure you read the commissions rules before start asking questions ;3; Everything is writen there~

I think i will make an announcement about opening the commissions up again sometime soon this week~
To clear things up, I'm going to take the icon commissions VERY easy this time because of the lake of free time ;;
So i will only open about 5 at a time and no ENDLESS like it used to be~
I will write it all down once i know how i want to do it ;3;

Also, if anyone follow that Bormal comic, i'm still working on it xD I got pages sketched up+ scripts, just need to put it down with ink~ I'm pretty scared of a couple of page because of the environment background they will have... oh god, i hate rooms..


Also, I've been away this weekend+ for my family's cats sake ( parents went on vacation ). It was so fun to be only me, cats and ~JoE-EviL there for 4 days without touching the pc
Here are some photos from my Tumblr ~JoE-EviL took <3

Holy geez
I only managed to answer 3 people or so in my previously journal before leaving the pc and when i came back, ALL THESE ADVICES AND WARM WORDS ;;
Sorry i won't be able to comment back, this is just too much... i'm such an ass -fall-

Thank you all for ALL them comments, EVERYTHING is so helpfull and so encouraging to actually do something!
Today i didn't go to work actually ( workers at home, long stupid story ) so i tried to pull something off... still working it out but at least i finally do something ;3;

I recomand people who want to hear good comic advices to go to my peviously journal and read some of the stuff there~> [link]

aahhhhh !


WAR WISE: ...still mehhhhh

LIKE THIS (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻


I think i'm losing it a bit.

I wish my passion to do my own stuff was strong enough to actually LET ME do my own stuff. But that thought of "You are not good enough" and " You don't know how to start" keep hunting me to the point it is just easier to come back from work, naping a little, eat something aannnndddd... bed
This is bad..

So how do you start a comic? Would you do it aalll the way from the begining or would you just start from the point of where you have a plot and story?... guuhh


In other wonderfull news, There is a whole lottsa fuzz around here about a possible war.

I DON'T EVEN

Can we all agree a world without nuclear weapons and Ahmadinejad would be a little bit a better world?

I turned 26..

GUYZ, WHAT IS THIS ALL THIS LOVE AROUND ME

I MEAN, GEEZ, REALLY?!

.... Really... ;;3;;

I got ( and still am ) pretty shocked by the amount of pictures and wishes around here and Tumblr ( i am still working on the Tumblr ones, this is impossible.. )
Everybody around here made this bday so much double better and those whole crappy feelings i kept having are gone with the wind... Even at work today people were cripped out by the smile i had all over my face..

Thank you so much all, i'm just still amazed ;;

In the real life, i got Many awesome things from my pretty family, with two i should highlight:

~JoE-EviL's AMAZING birthday gift that you should totally see the story behind it through here-> [link] ( do it, this is amazing <33 )

And my mom got me the OH SO NEEDED NEW Intuos5 Wacom! ;u; oh lawrrdd this is a HUGE improvement from Bamboo one, the pen's pressure is amazing and bigger space...

So yes.
BACK ON MY FEET BABY~!

Atleast until i fell again! 8D






LOVERS:

I turn 26...

... This is so wierd, i'm usually a big birthdays lover but now, when you pass the half that used to make you closer to your 20's and now getting closer to your 30's..... ....
...
Oh boy...
I actually got somewhat depressed during this whole week because of this and because of job's pressure..

On the bright side THERE ARE GIFTS NYOHOHOH~
And i am so amazed that some of you awesome butts actually already made me something! ;0; I... i really felt like this year was the most busy for me with the whole apartment/job stuff and i got driffted away... but seeing all the love i get in here...

...my 26 won't be too bad :'D



LOVERS:

Oh wow it has been awhile...

Work taking lotssa time so i usually just end up answering notes and commenting on as many picture i can comment on before i go die in bed yayyy~

SO ABOUT THAT WORK:
So far so good i think. I'm working with some WAAyyyy too talnted people there ( My stuff feel so useless ;; ) but we are all having super fun together~
If anyone wondered, i'm working for PlayTech , doing....umm.... gambling games ... BUT ALL IS GOOD! I hope some of the stuff i made with them will pop up soon for you all to see :>

I also doing some freelance works from the side, designing character for kids show and story boarding/ animatic stuff~

Sooooo i'm just a busy bee who wats to go to bed in the end of the day.. Thus i'm so flippin slow around here. I'm more active in my Tumblr where i do speed pictures for Questions mostly.


ABOUT THEM COMMISSIONS:
IIIiiiii REALLY want to open them soon ( wanted to do it a month ago.. ) but i must finish some stuff before it. Shouldn't take much time now.

...I miss ya all ;A;

Wow it is getting more and more rare for me to get in here because of all the stuff around ahhh....
Maybe this is the stage people talk about when you want to move on....
...Into Tumblr... But i still stick around in here for art and friendssss

Srsly though, if you want to see new stuff from me, it is all mostly on my Tumblr~

Next week i will start my new job as a character/enviros designer for a company aahhhhhAAHHHH i think i barfed a little in my mouth from excitement :'D I hope i will manage to manage both my personal life and both free fun time around here~<3


Today is the 64s Yom Ha'atzmaut ( Independence day ) of Israel and since we have a huge porch we will be holding the first lovely small BBQ in our apartment :> Should have an aweosme view on the fireworks~

.... oh shit forgot to make the salad PEACE OUT YO~!

~~~~>[link]

=Captain-Regenold, you crazy banana

OK OK

SO

Many things happened in the past month, since my last journal, which kinda force me to close any new commissions through Devi for now. All the icons and the waiting list will be done in the next days together with the regular commissions so fear not! :>
Also, who ever yet to answer my replay notes is still welcome to get in the list~

I just want to make sure i won't take more than i can swallow and then make people wait for WAY too long.

Things looking good for the future now that i can burf from HAPPY panic yay~!

Man it really feels like im putting ONE picture every once a week... i am so disappointed of myself :[

Lotsaa things going on and off around~ Still trying to "find myself" and what i want to do with my life and along the way im doing little works and having ( hopefully ) some future project that have to do with what i do~

Also, remember that book i illustrated around 3 years ago? WELL now it is time for book number 2! :> i feel a little shitty now about the older one because i started a few pages of the new one and... i can see some little improvement xD; The art is GOOD but... goddamit where were you skills back then...

That's it pretty much~ I am not around as much as i would like to be but i do work on them commissions and almost done with all the icons i have left with to do. SORRY FOR THE WAITING, i had/having over 80 to do ;3;

I just hope i wont sank into that bad depression hole once again ahhhhhh....



Must... do.... things....


:: PS ::
Only a few days left till the end of the Tshirt contest!
I will really appreciate if you "I'd wear this!" if you like my design! ;w;